“You must have chaos within you to give birth to a dancing star.”
~ Frederiche Nietzsche
I work in my pyjamas, bite ice cream and ride polar bears. okay, maybe not that last thing. I wear Rottweiler slippers and well-loved purple Chucks. I love sushi and donuts and fizzy drinks. And cheese. I love cheese. I think chocolate is a vegetable and that cupcakes are their own food group.
I routinely make up words and laugh too loud. I believe in dragons and also that we are all made of stardust. most of all though, I am passionate about everything I do. I’m like a swirl of fiery passion encased in skin. I love big.
I have a chronic illness that makes my life a little complicated; writing and the visual arts enable me channel my negativity on the not-so-good days and keep me centred on the better days. Creative and visual expression is a form of healing, quite meditative, the language of the soul, I believe.
And so I draw, I paint, I write. and I photograph. and I design. I try to, I need to, infuse these practices into each day. Yet I feel this yearning for more of the creation experience. or perhaps more reflecting upon my own personal experience of creation.
So here I am, to connect with that sacred space within myself, that space that longs for the nourishment that only making and pondering art can provide. It’s like I’m creating a map to myself (thank you to the brilliant Jo Klima for the inspiration), to that grrl who’s grown through some difficult personal challenges in the past several years, to that grrl who’s no longer defined by her relationships, or by what she does, but by who she is.
I’ve felt scattered about my creative work in the past. But as I’ve circled back to drawing and painting, I’ve taken the focus back. I am in the process of developing a body of work for a possible exhibition here in Vancouver. My focus will be on mental illness ~ depression, bipolar, PTSD ~ and healing, and womanhood: things I know a lot about because they’re my lived experiences.
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